Epiphany

Last week I had an epiphany about being a mom. I've been going through the past 2+ years trying to fit my kids into my schedule instead of working my schedule around my kids. Because of this, I have experienced a great amount of frustration because they never allow me to get done what I have planned to get done. This causes me to then be discontent with motherhood and mad at my kids for disrupting my plans. Pure selfishness. Right?

So, over the last few weeks I have been putting my kids plans first. I've stopped what I am doing to sit and have a tea party, snuggle, play Playdough, read in bed or just chat. I've stopped making long lists of things that I want to get done in the day and started thinking of creative things I could do with my kids. It has been amazing to see the change in my kids and myself. I've really enjoyed my time with them and we have had very few discipline issues. Another thing is, I have been able to get things done after they go to bed since I am not so mentally exhausted from being frustrated about not getting anything done during the day. Best of all, I am seeing what the Bible means when it says that children are a blessing from the Lord. I may not be getting visible things done, but I am doing my job and that makes up for an immaculate house any day.